clicks

so like almost every one in the world. I'm in a click or a group or whatever and I've recently decided i kinda hate my group. i mean I've hated them for a while but i thought i just had to deal with them, like there the group i choose so now i ave to live with it. but what Ive noticed with my group is we're only really friends when we can use that person for money or drugs or alcohol or all the above. and because of this i only have one real friend while the rest are just there.

see i always thought there was this unwritten rule that you had to hang out with your group and no one else, i mean you could talk to other people but that's about it, and that's just how i lived my life only with the group i was in, but now i hate my group I'm so tired of them, I'm so tired of being a stoner, and getting in trouble, smoking, drinking I'm just tired of it all. and that's why, as long as i don't get to scared...i really want to hang out with other people. try to explore my otaku side, try and actually hang out with the people, i only talk to.

the reasons why I'm so afraid to hang out with other groups, is like me, and everyone else, our click are the people we always hang out with every weekend so i would hate to just impose on people and make everything really awkward but you cant make new friends if you don't try...i always think about how i wish i could go back in time and fix all the mistakes I've made through out my life, my friends being one them, but this is now and i don't have a time machine so i have to fix everything now before i regret it for the rest of my life =/